Why Big Kid Me?

Why Big Kid Me?

I decided a year ago that I wanted to start a blog. I was experiencing, after much Googling, what I think was a ‘quarter life crisis’. You haven’t heard of such a thing? Neither had I. Basically I was struggling with the expectations of being a twentysomething. Here is a snapshot of some of the writing I did amidst the crisis!

Life in our twenties sparkles with possibility. We are given leeway, a privilege we must certainly not take for granted, to explore our options. To make mistakes, to put ourselves first, to work out- undoubtedly through trial and error- where our path will lead. On the flipside, beyond the dreaming and the learning, the reality is that this decade of our life can set the scene for our future. This is of course exciting but undeniably it comes with pressure and expectation to give our lives direction. We make moves that will define who we are and what we want our lives to look like. Some of us will prioritise climbing up the corporate ladder, some will work towards the security and investment that comes with property, some will want a family and others will want nothing more than to travel the globe. Personally, I’m still trying to work out what it is I want and in what order. I find that the luxury of choice can be a burden as I realise I can’t do it all. Not right now anyway. There is a definite dreamer side to me which is tempted to buy a one way ticket to travel the world. To live one day to the next without a care. Although I don’t always listen to the dreamer. She is pushed aside at times and my sensible hat comes on. I should work hard, save hard and buy a house of my own. Provide myself with security and financial advantage for the years to come. So do we take this chance, that’s perhaps not as accepted in our thirties and beyond, to fall and get back up again, to spend our money on things that we want, not that we need, to stretch the limits?

As I’m about to start a 4 month journey around Europe, I obviously decided the travel option was for me! It’s no one way ticket around the world but it is a big chunk of time to pick up and leave my everyday life. Some might think it’s not sensible, but for me, it’s something I feel I need to do before I settle down. I stopped looking at mortgage calculators and instead started reading Tripadvisor reviews. All my savings, that could have gone towards a house deposit, are being converted to Pounds, Euros and Swiss Francs ready to fund experiences that will last as memories for a lifetime! So that is how the blog title came about. While I feel grown up in some ways, mostly I just feel like a big kid trying to fake my way through being a grown up. This blog, until September anyway, will endeavour to take you all on the journey with me around Europe. While you read, I hope to whisk you away from wherever you are and drop you into the world that I am experiencing. I cant wait to get started!